Behind the smile

« Je suis sans mot », he said.

He looked at him strangely. He didn’t understand the words. He was not sure if he was happy or sad. He asked him once again, his face showing more concern.

“Are you sure you’re ok?”

“Yes, I am.” He smiled and replied calmly and, fell into silence.

The T shaped man shrugged and continued his conversation with another colleague.

The P shaped man delved into his thoughts once again.

It may be dumbfounding knowing to what degree we consider ourselves significant right here and now. In our minds, we probably constantly believe ourselves to be important and our balance of thoughts is disturbed when we are confronted with our insignificance through the words and actions of others, particularly when those actions and words originate from people we know. We suddenly perceive ourselves, through the eyes of others, at a level lower than what we envisioned, when in actuality, the way we see ourselves through others is our own new perception of us. An external entity most likely triggered a new sensory data, creating a new opinion about our self, and sometimes sending us in disarray, or a shift in mood. We then fight hard to prove our significance, in reality, perhaps to none other than ourselves until our belief is reinstated. And then a sudden burst of ideas, and we expand our thoughts to a much larger extent, and effectively understand how truly insignificant we are in the larger scheme of things, and that this mind battle is so unimportant compared to our existence, which in effect, can be measured up to the  minutest invisible spec of dust floating in the air. With this thought, is accompanied an undue feeling of freedom and liberation. Our burden is lifted and the rainbow makes a reappearance.  

The P shaped man tapped the shoulder of the T shaped man and asked him to pass him the bottle of water. The T shaped man did so, and the P shaped man smiled the kindest of smiles.