How can i stop time?

Everything that I need is in me. I am a sentient free-willed being who has the power to create, change and do anything in accordance to the laws of environments that surround me. Everything that results, results from my omniscience self creator, and everything that I think goes wrong befalls onto me as well, this same higher self. Contemplating and trying to understand this self fills what I think of as me with humility. This year, so many experiences have left me in awe as to how powerful a word, an action or a thought can be, how there seem to be invisible forces working with your single mindedness to achieve different things, things you thought you couldn’t dream of achieving. If I were to put it in religious terms, I’d have to say I feel blessed, very blessed. This past year, I have been able to put myself in various situations and experience different façades of me, some of which left me to marvel at my behavior and some of which left me falling short and needing to improve. But more importantly, I danced, I worked, I laughed, I loved, I toiled, I played, I traveled, I experienced, I found new mes and old mes, I cried, I experienced being loved, I watched the stars, I walked, I swam, I read, I learnt, I talked, I listened, I breathed.

Then, there is this other me which is present and searches for reasons of my non-fulfillments and invades my intellect with negativity. I try to kick it, but it remains a part of my existence preying on me and my thoughts. Hopefully, in 2010, I will be able to pick this part with the imaginary fingers of my mind, and gently move it in a place where it can't affect my self.

2009 was the year where the heart and humility in people overcame me. This new year, I will hopefully cumulate these two beautiful virtues in me.

To more travels, more love, more serenity and more experiences... Happy New Year!