Back “home”…

Well, this is ambiguous. There is no place where I feel is home. Coming back to India felt strange and as usual there was emptiness within. I miss the hoff and the kili kids.

I’m currently making my next temporary plans as I am asked on numerous occasions by different people, what next? Are you staying here? Where is your next destination? Marriage plans?

Maybe it's my inability or unwillingness to settle down. Maybe I want something that I can’t have or is not the right time to have. I’m not sure. I know that my temporary plans are making my life interesting and help keep me going. I have one real possession, my laptop, and with it, I’m lucky to make money with a job I’ve grown to love and am almost scared to lose.

Yesterday, in Harsh’s and Chand’s car I heard this song. And, it stuck.

Society by Eddie Vedder

Oh, it's a mystery to me

We have a greed with which we have agreed

And you think you have to want more than you need

Until you have it all you won't be free

Society, you're a crazy breed

Hope you're not lonely without me...

When you want more than you have

You think you need...

And when you think more than you want

Your thoughts begin to bleed

I think I need to find a bigger place

Because when you have more than you think

You need more space

Society, you're a crazy breed

Hope you're not lonely without me...

Society, crazy indeed

Hope you're not lonely without me...

There's those thinking, more-or-less, less is more

But if less is more, how you keeping score?

Means for every point you make, your level drops

Kinda like you're starting from the top

You can't do that...

Society, you're a crazy breed

Hope you're not lonely without me...

Society, crazy indeed

Hope you're not lonely without me...

Society, have mercy on me

Hope you're not angry if I disagree...

Society, crazy indeed

Hope you're not lonely without me...