Blinded by a dot

Emptiness. Filling the void with random sensations. Different temporary sentiments at a given time and then, back to emptiness. A secular perspective of surroundings, and the realm of self is scarcely grasped. Limited views as the means of an ending of satisfaction, but beleaguered until its achievement, at every stage. Losing the cadence of the physical, mental and spiritual, giving in to outer influences. Those influences devour my universe, engulf me into acting against my natural state. A single thought. A minute creation becomes bigger and bigger, eventually turns into a parasite and will not leave the mind. Affixed, infatuated, emptiness is gone. Anxiety takes over until its realization, joy and then calmness. Having the ability to lose one’s mind. A gift. Today, I’m going to lose my mind. I will not have to act logically, or follow a certain customary pattern because my mind is lost. Can the mind be moved to the chest area? Or to the genitals? Its controlling powers are overwhelming. How can I take control of the mind, since it is probably the mind that controls I? Conscience is the awareness of a moral or ethical aspect to one’s conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong. Consciousness is the state of being awake and aware of one’s surroundings. Without the mind, "i" cannot experience consciousness or conscience. If one lost one’s mind, no emptiness would be experienced? Stuck on a single point. The tiny dot becomes bigger than the sun until you’re blinded by everything else, and that is all you can see. Shunya.